You know those people who have lots of great ideas, but rarely seem to actually carry out the plan to completion?
You might even see a bunch of really organized and well-written lists lying around, but with very few things crossed off!
(My hubby calls me the List Queen. I LOVE lists. Too bad lists don’t equal productivity…cause then I’d be the most productive one-person git ‘er done factory ever.)
The kind who get super excited about a new project, but then are bored with it before it’s finished…
(There might be four unpainted cabinet drawers in my kitchen out of my
newly a few several months ago refinished wood-to-white cabinets. That also might be on one of those to-do lists. But who knows….just speaking hypothetically )
These people generally have the best and most sincere of intentions, but sometimes get too many irons in the fire, get discouraged, or lose their excitement before the follow through.
Know anyone like that?
I kinda do….
…that would be me. At least some of the time. I’m trying.
While I could write it off as being “free-spirited” or spontaneous, to be honest it’s not something I am proud of. In fact, I really don’t like it! There are some areas in life that I am pretty particular about (i.e. I love me a clean house!), but this pattern of half-baked ideas and tasks has been somewhat of a theme for me. I can easily get discouraged while reflecting on it, and goshdarnit, just down right bugged about myself! I have really been convicted in the past year or two that it is a lack of discipline in some of the areas in my life. Moreover, just not being intentional about how I spend my time, energy, and resources. It’s something I’ve endeavored to work on since high school, but I think the moment I began to realize that I really needed to kick it into high gear was when I became pregnant with my first daughter, Addelyn. I think perhaps the realization that I would soon be totally responsible for another human being really gave me a punch of reality. I began to pray and really think about how my priorities were stacked, whether the thing be great or small. In doing so, I found three things about myself:
1. I try wayyyy too hard to do wayyyy too many things for wayyyy too many people. In short…
”Hi, my name is Ashlie, and I am a people pleaser.”
2. One of my greatest enemies is actually perfectionism. When something isn’t happening just the way I think it should in the time I think it should, I get overwhelmed, discouraged, and leave it to avoid total failure…but really do exactly that – fail!
3. My lack of discipline and intentionality in some key areas directly affects my own welfare and that of those close to me.
Some of these things might seem like a no-brainer to an objective outsider, but it can be difficult to discern about one’s self until you have one of those “ah ha!” moments and identify the issue(s). So, in identifying some of these areas, I’ve been doing my best to allow God to change my perspective, align my priorities, and adjust some practical things in my life in order to be a more effective and intentional wife, mother, daughter, friend….etc, etc, etc. Let me say that it hasn’t been easy, and the path has lots of bumps…and am still on it! Probably will be for the rest of my life. But, I thank God for it because through the process it has given me so much more freedom, has helped me to weed out some of my “people-pleasing” tendencies, and be able to better serve others. A few of the areas I’ve been working on specifically:
- my relationship with God
- my marriage
- time management/organization
- reaching out to others
“Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ.” (ESV)